Posted by: Cynthia K
It is sometimes hard for me to retain a realistic outlook when I have a tendency to default to utter optimism and hope. It sometimes displays my extreme naivete, but what can I say? After all, you can take a girl out of the suburbs, but you can't get that overly-protective, sheltered and safe upbringing off of the girl! At the urging of emails and comments posted here, I have decided to take some control in my guy situation and back off for awhile. The worst case scenario is that if I miss him that bad, I can just watch some of those videos we took on my site. LOL. He is just lucky I felt so comfortable to do some of that stuff with him and gave him access to me in so many ways. I had set aside these photos to surprise him with on his birthday, but my flatmate suggested I send them in. As she put it, he doesn't deserve them! And here I was prepared to use them as a means to entice him into some of my fantasies about sex in a skirt. My flatmate likes to tease me that she knows what I'm doing when I return home wearing a skirt or dress, then immediately lock myself in my room for a spell. What can I say? The problem with feeling like such a dork and being so easily embarassed is that when my only response is blushing, it means that I can't deny it!
